Chameleon by Nature

Being the little actress that I am I have always been able to easily ease into any situations that are around me.  That is good in many ways, since I have been told that I make people feel like they are at  home or that I don't know a stranger.  However, the bad part of it is I also blend emotionally with groups and I have a strong sense of empathy that I try to cover up with my "don't care" attitude.  The truth is I care deeply, the "don't care" part is my safety mechanism since I've been screwed over by so many people that I have sympathized with.

Being able to connect with people has been a blessing.  I love helping people and I love fixing things, so God put the right things in me to help those gifts.  My nature blockade however is my easily affected attitude.  I can be having this incredible wonderful day and it be gone in an instant because I start talking to someone who is PO'd.  I have to literally walk away from those negative people chanting "It's a good day, It's a good day"!  If not, I am walking around being PO'd.  So if I always seem pissy around you, look inward... ha ha, just jokin'.  So anyways, that is where my spiritual guy has to take over and make me stronger.  For the past two months I have been deliberately avoiding the complainers, the whiners, and the gripers.  I know I will quickly follow suit if I don't.

 I had a lot of guy friends growing up, and my brother was one of my best friends.  Guys don't sit around trashing people all the time.  I guess down deep that is why I preferred them as friends, I felt better when I laid my head down at night.  The funny thing is, most of the girlfriends I had growing up had mostly guy friends too!   I am still a work in progress and I do have confidence that woman as a sex can become more positive.  Everyday I am figuring out my triggers so I can stay positive and loving.  I challenge all of you to do the same.